Face to Face :)

You've been on my mind
So, I said I'd find some time to let you know
I finally found it so,
Here goes nothing.
I must admit I've lied
But before I tell you why,
Please hear me out
You were a chance that I was too afraid of taking

This is it
This is all I have to say
I used to stay awake and wonder
Praying for the day when you would
Notice me, but now I'm slowly
Noticing that while you were my world,
You weren't the one
And now my searching days are done.

You never said you cared for me
You never told me anything
But the silence got me wondering
My curiosity,
It got the best of me.
You got the best of me.

This is it
This is all I have to say
I used to stay awake and wonder
Praying for the day when you would
Notice me, but now I'm slowly
Noticing that while you were my world,
You weren't the one
And now my searching days are done.

You are the one that got away
You are the one that I let go of,
I'm so glad you ran away,
Because I know I never could've
Told you face to face

I started thinking things were never gonna change,
That I would never find someone, 'cause it was far too late.
But then she showed up,
When I was let down.
I felt my heart jump.
She helped me up from the ground and said,

This is it,
This is all I have to say.
I used to stay awake and wonder
Praying for the day that I would find you
But now it's come true
And I swear I'm here to stay
And if you left me I would say,

You are the one that got away
You are the one I can't let go of
So please never run away,
Because I never want to say

You are the one who got away,
You are the one I can't let go of.


DVF : Face to Face lyrics awesomeness!

Dissapointed : Suprise

I've been reaching for your hand,
But your never there to help me,
You never understand that nothing's what it seems,
Yeah it's been a long time coming but I think I got this right,
Girl you do me wrong but do we really have to fight,
Oh though you had me fooled,
I always knew I'd come back to you, always knew I'd come back,
Tell me does it hurt when you think of me,
Do your memories sting when you're remembering,
Yeah you took my world and tore it in two,
And I'm so disappointed but I'm not surprised,
And I sing I hope you're happy,
And I could be better but it would be better to leave it all behind,
So I'll watch my mouth while you make up your mind,
And baby if we don't talk about it then maybe things will change,
But baby even if we might laugh about this will never be the same,
So I'll wait until you decide,
Forgiving things??
Yeah I'm sure I'll soon forget,
So keep on moving don't look back,
Remember me I'll remember that,
I gave you my everything,
But you gave me nothing I could show,
I never could get enough,
And I never did seem to let it go,
But if we believe that we can gain some clarity,
Then maybe we could see we're complete.



THE BEST WORDS EVER
P/S THESE ARE LYRICS FOR 'Disspointed : Suprise' :)

thingking of you

Thinking of you where ever you are,
We pray for our sorrows to end,
And hope that our hearts will blend,
Now I will step forward to realize this wish,
And who knows,
Starting a new journey may not be so hard,
Or maybe it's already begun,
There are many worlds,
But they share the same sky,
One sky on destiny.

Messed Up

so it has been ages since my last post, well it doesn't matter since that i don't really has that much follower and this blog is kinda like my personal journal. Okay the reason I'm writing this post is because today I had a little fight with a friend which is really close to me and to made it worst I failed to help my other friend. SHIT and yes i type it all in CAPITAL LETTERS because it's how I feel right now. Okay I've to admit that i was a DOUCHE for the whole day. So all i want to say is that i'm fucking sorry guys and maybe i got all stress out because i need to go back to the fucking police station and retrieve the fucking report number back. Sometimes i just don't get it why must certain people won't leave you alone and Mr.Indian can you stop made my life a living HELL. Its already been a year and for fuck sake just fucking claim the damn insurance and leave me alone you BLACK CUNT!. I wish you can read this because if i ever saw your fucking face again i will definitely break the shit out of it. Pathetic man, just pathetic because i can't believe after a whole year of silence and suddenly out of nowhere you made a huge ruckus. My whole day was messed up all because of one simple phone call from the old man and thanks to you Mr.Indian i got a nice lecture from my dad. I've made the fucking report and still you are asking me for the report number. arrgggh! way to go man because of you now i need to go down to the police station and retrieved the report number back!. Okay that's quite a relieve and sorry again to both of you GUYS and i shall pray that Mr.Indian will fucking rot in hell!

Growing Beard?! AGAIN

Okay everyone might have said a couple of bad things about me and me lovely beard but since I like it so much and I just hate wasting my money on shaver and shaving cream so fuck off people. Shaving is an art like my mom used to say, besides that people who shave is an organize and neat person but mom sometimes people that doesn't shave also have a very neat and organize life for example me even though I'm not that super organize or a neat freak but my level of cleanliness is A-OKAY!. Sighs does keeping this beard made me look like a bad person or an asshole?. Mom said that I look old,messy and like that "Brutus" guy from the Popeye Cartoon. I used to shave regularly like 3 times per week and yeah I only keep a bit of facial hair to grow on my chin. Well let just say that I've sick and tired of playing with this shaver and the cream. So till I get back to the mood of shaving, I'm just gonna keep it untrimmed and messy as it is! :)

Hell of a week

Well last week was the best. Wanna know why, well it's simply because I got to play with paint and spend 8 days straight with my college mates. Yeah it's tiring but I'm glad that I take the offer that my dad gave me. Now I know how does the Indonesian or labor worker that need to work their butt off under the hot sun just to get their meal of the day. The work is done and the masterpiece is done and as an amatuer I'm proud to say that we've done quite a good work. The 'Paintman'....cliche right hahaha. Besides, I got to spend the last two days hanging out with them without any paint on and yes we can never stop talking about it and yeah I will inform you guys if I got any new 'tender' hahahaha. Well that's all from me catch you guys later!

I am Straight Edge

Okay I've been so grumpy for the past three weeks during this holy month of Ramadhan and yes I've done couple of things that I've shouldn't done. SIGHS! well maybe this is an early pace that I need to go through to help me change into someone better. Well for starter I've official stopped smoking for nearly a month now. That's so cool and I also have started thinking about my future plan for 2011. Oh and it's almost near my semester break and HARI RAYA! can't wait for that to come. Okay I've done something stupid last Friday and YES I DO REGRETS and really wished that I can erase that incident from my memory. Let bygones be bygones and yeah during that time I actually realize someone that I never thought gonna respond back to me in such ways. Thanks for calming me done 'STUCK UP BITCH' well she ain't that bitchy anymore so thank you again. Oh almost forgot thanks again 'LOYAL ASSISTANT' for really cheer me up for the past weeks and really made my day!. See when LIFE give you lemon just squeeze that fucking thing and made some lemonade out of it. Oh and it's official 2 months and 8 days since that day and still waiting. So just let you guys know even though I've said that I move on it doesn't mean I'm gonna stop waiting...so haters go screw yourself. Well I gonna watch some SMOSH videos now so see ya when I see ya people!

Moving On ;')

Well it has been such a wonderful time waiting for you and yes I never regrets for everything that I've done just to spend my time knowing you. Man I'm really emotional right now as I'm sinking my fingertips into this keyboard. I'll let time and faith make their decision now. Deep down inside I never gonna give up and just gonna sit and wait till you came and bring those keys to me. I shall let my love locked up deep inside my heart for you. Why must it always end up like this, why must I be the one that need to wait and never gain anything. I've tried and people have already told me that I'm a fool because waiting for you is really gonna tear my heart apart. I wish I could have known you earlier and be the one that cheer you up, the one that make you smile, the one that you adore so much and also the one and only that gonna protect you from anything that gonna hurt you. I just gonna look out for you and protect you by the sideline for now. A 'Stalker' that gonna be there every time you feel sad, alone or in trouble. Well at least you made me change into a better person. I stop smoking because of you, I force myself to sleep while thinking of you, I'll also remind myself not to litter like you told me couple of days ago. Yes you're something, someone that change me and yes I've to admit that after knowing you i just can't stop thinking about you. Man I wish we can be more than a business partner. Well I shall leave you know but remember this every time you need me I'll always be there for you no matter what.





p.s: I am a FOOL that gonna wait for you PUFF EYES :')

I'm stuck

Okay life can be such a bitch sometimes and right now I'm just stuck with so many problems. Like why must all this kind of problem only occur to me, okay people always say that life is KARMA and what you've done you will get back. I am a SINNER but why can't you give me a break LIFE! I just wish that all of this problem will go away but NO i have to face it, so fuck off problems and please go away because right now I just can't handle all of you at once. 'What kind of problems?' you asked, well let just say that right now I'm waiting for someone that really don't have a clue that I'm waiting and yes I will WAIT for her no matter what. Oh and another problems is the fucked up Indian guy can't stop calling me to make a report so that he can claim the fucking insurance and if I don't maybe I might have problems with the LAW,fuck off like I'm gonna listen to you. Oh that the most devastated problem is that my mum is in the hospital and I really wish that I can take care of her until she been discharged but I have to sit for final next and yes I really need to study and finished up all my last minute assignment. Shoot! I just wanna cry sometimes and yeah LIFE once again you've make my year full of SHIT. Okay this is my wish list for next year and LIFE do listen and I promise I'll be a better person :

Afiq's wish list:
1.I wanna sleep easily
2.I hope people will at least give me some space for me to REST
3.I hope all of my family members or relatives or friends will always be happy and healthy
4.Better result for next semester
5.Stop littering and doing stupid stuff
6.Improve my knowledge in everything that I need to know
7.less EMO and EGO and GRUMPY
8.Try to smile without faking it
9.No problems with the law or some stupid Indian!
10.Oh and seriously please make me go to sleep easily

New week past last week

Well let put it this way last week was the bomb!
everything is a-ok! i stay awake for two days because of playing tahiti
man life can't get any better than this...oh and i forgot to mention one thing
i was a true LONELY HERO last sunday!
haha well sort of because i help my cousin with her car problem
and man it was not hard...(showoff) ;p
and then i need to send this little and short witch i call cousin to her hostel
but before that we made a pit stop at alamanda putrajaya~!
well at least she bought something...and treat me and my friend a Mc'Flurry!
Then she treat us again at KFC in kajang and on the way there i had this little argue
about the word lebar and besar in english wide and big..childish ryte bout that was happen...and the worst part is i lost to her(just saying it to made her feel better she lose actually) she has a very huge EGO op top of her head!
at the restaurant she still making fun of me for losing up to her and man she laugh when i order the chicky meal...dang it! but the nugget was good though...not to forget the milo! no ice
ok in the end of the journey she left some so called 'present' in my car
man it was so sticky but...the good thing is it makes my 'Stellar' smell good!
Farah Hebat 'The Witch' i wanna thank you for a great weekend and thanks for the chicky meal eventhough you take the free toy...haha ok gotta crash my hand into the keyboard for some assignment so ciao people!

Back To Basic

So now I'm gonna start back at my life
fresh new one,trying to better day by day
this time I'm gonna pack all my old memories in a box
burn it into ashes and plant a tree on it
I'm gonna called it a memories tree,haha
well get ready world after this holiday there's a brand new kid on the block
I've fully recovered from my shitty phase and gonna be fully loaded for the world
fuck the past just fuck it
thinking bout it only making me sober and slowing me down...
I'm fully recovered!
yes and proud to say that I'm back!

Weekend or Week End?!

Weekends should be fun and tight right
haha its rhymes
well in this fuckin boring month of november all of my weekend sucks man
like big time
well like last week i go to movie alone
i thought of getting a lay back and nice weekend
well haha to that the movie 'PHOBIA' is like a piece of shit
yeah people said that it's scary
well my friend scary my butt...it's so stupid and the last story suppose to be funny
and guess what i'm not laughing...
ok then i try to search for some ice cream
i bought it and only manage to get a bite or two
u wanna know why?well let just say some stupid kid was running around in the fucking park and BAM!!! they hit me
fuck man my shirt was full of chocolate topping man
okay i can't say that i'm that mad because he was just a stupid 8 year old kid
but in the end i manage to spend some good time swimming with my friends and help them out in the kitchen
and i can said that when you live on a house full with hungry wolves anything you cook will be delicious...haha
man i can't fucking wait for hari raya haji...wanna know why?well i really miss all my cuz and i just wanna try and relighted the spirit of hari raya!!
so don't get to excited for the weekends because it might be where your week end!!!
got it?! hahaha
ciao people
mr.messed up

Back Into Blogging

hello world it has been awhile since i remove all my shit
well who can resist the temptations of blogging right...
well the reason i started to blogging back is because for me this the only way that i can speak up anything that running into my mind.Like what the fuck right...well fuck you i guess for me blogging is ain't a girl thingy and come on there's like a lot bunch of other guys that write blog too...so to the fucked up people out there that think I'm a pussy because i have a blog than just go bust your nut fool...
okay enough with the cursing and seriously sorry about it
so life has it up and down right,well like right now I'm feeling down as hell man
i don't know why....but right now I've feel so down and lonely
this feeling has been haunting me since the last two weeks
i don't interact with others i laugh when i watch a sad movie scene
sometime i laugh till cry and etc...man i really need to get my old self back man
because being like this make me feel so sad and sometimes make me look like a fucking lunatic man...usually smoke can keep me cool but now its like...i don't know what to say but I know something is wrong with me right now
well maybe i need time to be with my friends and stuff...i hope this feeling will go away and i really need to focused up because my mid term is coming up and i have two presentations that ain't gonna finished up on its on...
so wish me luck!
Mr.Messed Up