Messed Up

so it has been ages since my last post, well it doesn't matter since that i don't really has that much follower and this blog is kinda like my personal journal. Okay the reason I'm writing this post is because today I had a little fight with a friend which is really close to me and to made it worst I failed to help my other friend. SHIT and yes i type it all in CAPITAL LETTERS because it's how I feel right now. Okay I've to admit that i was a DOUCHE for the whole day. So all i want to say is that i'm fucking sorry guys and maybe i got all stress out because i need to go back to the fucking police station and retrieve the fucking report number back. Sometimes i just don't get it why must certain people won't leave you alone and Mr.Indian can you stop made my life a living HELL. Its already been a year and for fuck sake just fucking claim the damn insurance and leave me alone you BLACK CUNT!. I wish you can read this because if i ever saw your fucking face again i will definitely break the shit out of it. Pathetic man, just pathetic because i can't believe after a whole year of silence and suddenly out of nowhere you made a huge ruckus. My whole day was messed up all because of one simple phone call from the old man and thanks to you Mr.Indian i got a nice lecture from my dad. I've made the fucking report and still you are asking me for the report number. arrgggh! way to go man because of you now i need to go down to the police station and retrieved the report number back!. Okay that's quite a relieve and sorry again to both of you GUYS and i shall pray that Mr.Indian will fucking rot in hell!

Growing Beard?! AGAIN

Okay everyone might have said a couple of bad things about me and me lovely beard but since I like it so much and I just hate wasting my money on shaver and shaving cream so fuck off people. Shaving is an art like my mom used to say, besides that people who shave is an organize and neat person but mom sometimes people that doesn't shave also have a very neat and organize life for example me even though I'm not that super organize or a neat freak but my level of cleanliness is A-OKAY!. Sighs does keeping this beard made me look like a bad person or an asshole?. Mom said that I look old,messy and like that "Brutus" guy from the Popeye Cartoon. I used to shave regularly like 3 times per week and yeah I only keep a bit of facial hair to grow on my chin. Well let just say that I've sick and tired of playing with this shaver and the cream. So till I get back to the mood of shaving, I'm just gonna keep it untrimmed and messy as it is! :)

Hell of a week

Well last week was the best. Wanna know why, well it's simply because I got to play with paint and spend 8 days straight with my college mates. Yeah it's tiring but I'm glad that I take the offer that my dad gave me. Now I know how does the Indonesian or labor worker that need to work their butt off under the hot sun just to get their meal of the day. The work is done and the masterpiece is done and as an amatuer I'm proud to say that we've done quite a good work. The 'Paintman'....cliche right hahaha. Besides, I got to spend the last two days hanging out with them without any paint on and yes we can never stop talking about it and yeah I will inform you guys if I got any new 'tender' hahahaha. Well that's all from me catch you guys later!

I am Straight Edge

Okay I've been so grumpy for the past three weeks during this holy month of Ramadhan and yes I've done couple of things that I've shouldn't done. SIGHS! well maybe this is an early pace that I need to go through to help me change into someone better. Well for starter I've official stopped smoking for nearly a month now. That's so cool and I also have started thinking about my future plan for 2011. Oh and it's almost near my semester break and HARI RAYA! can't wait for that to come. Okay I've done something stupid last Friday and YES I DO REGRETS and really wished that I can erase that incident from my memory. Let bygones be bygones and yeah during that time I actually realize someone that I never thought gonna respond back to me in such ways. Thanks for calming me done 'STUCK UP BITCH' well she ain't that bitchy anymore so thank you again. Oh almost forgot thanks again 'LOYAL ASSISTANT' for really cheer me up for the past weeks and really made my day!. See when LIFE give you lemon just squeeze that fucking thing and made some lemonade out of it. Oh and it's official 2 months and 8 days since that day and still waiting. So just let you guys know even though I've said that I move on it doesn't mean I'm gonna stop waiting...so haters go screw yourself. Well I gonna watch some SMOSH videos now so see ya when I see ya people!

Moving On ;')

Well it has been such a wonderful time waiting for you and yes I never regrets for everything that I've done just to spend my time knowing you. Man I'm really emotional right now as I'm sinking my fingertips into this keyboard. I'll let time and faith make their decision now. Deep down inside I never gonna give up and just gonna sit and wait till you came and bring those keys to me. I shall let my love locked up deep inside my heart for you. Why must it always end up like this, why must I be the one that need to wait and never gain anything. I've tried and people have already told me that I'm a fool because waiting for you is really gonna tear my heart apart. I wish I could have known you earlier and be the one that cheer you up, the one that make you smile, the one that you adore so much and also the one and only that gonna protect you from anything that gonna hurt you. I just gonna look out for you and protect you by the sideline for now. A 'Stalker' that gonna be there every time you feel sad, alone or in trouble. Well at least you made me change into a better person. I stop smoking because of you, I force myself to sleep while thinking of you, I'll also remind myself not to litter like you told me couple of days ago. Yes you're something, someone that change me and yes I've to admit that after knowing you i just can't stop thinking about you. Man I wish we can be more than a business partner. Well I shall leave you know but remember this every time you need me I'll always be there for you no matter what.





p.s: I am a FOOL that gonna wait for you PUFF EYES :')

I'm stuck

Okay life can be such a bitch sometimes and right now I'm just stuck with so many problems. Like why must all this kind of problem only occur to me, okay people always say that life is KARMA and what you've done you will get back. I am a SINNER but why can't you give me a break LIFE! I just wish that all of this problem will go away but NO i have to face it, so fuck off problems and please go away because right now I just can't handle all of you at once. 'What kind of problems?' you asked, well let just say that right now I'm waiting for someone that really don't have a clue that I'm waiting and yes I will WAIT for her no matter what. Oh and another problems is the fucked up Indian guy can't stop calling me to make a report so that he can claim the fucking insurance and if I don't maybe I might have problems with the LAW,fuck off like I'm gonna listen to you. Oh that the most devastated problem is that my mum is in the hospital and I really wish that I can take care of her until she been discharged but I have to sit for final next and yes I really need to study and finished up all my last minute assignment. Shoot! I just wanna cry sometimes and yeah LIFE once again you've make my year full of SHIT. Okay this is my wish list for next year and LIFE do listen and I promise I'll be a better person :

Afiq's wish list:
1.I wanna sleep easily
2.I hope people will at least give me some space for me to REST
3.I hope all of my family members or relatives or friends will always be happy and healthy
4.Better result for next semester
5.Stop littering and doing stupid stuff
6.Improve my knowledge in everything that I need to know
7.less EMO and EGO and GRUMPY
8.Try to smile without faking it
9.No problems with the law or some stupid Indian!
10.Oh and seriously please make me go to sleep easily

New week past last week

Well let put it this way last week was the bomb!
everything is a-ok! i stay awake for two days because of playing tahiti
man life can't get any better than this...oh and i forgot to mention one thing
i was a true LONELY HERO last sunday!
haha well sort of because i help my cousin with her car problem
and man it was not hard...(showoff) ;p
and then i need to send this little and short witch i call cousin to her hostel
but before that we made a pit stop at alamanda putrajaya~!
well at least she bought something...and treat me and my friend a Mc'Flurry!
Then she treat us again at KFC in kajang and on the way there i had this little argue
about the word lebar and besar in english wide and big..childish ryte bout that was happen...and the worst part is i lost to her(just saying it to made her feel better she lose actually) she has a very huge EGO op top of her head!
at the restaurant she still making fun of me for losing up to her and man she laugh when i order the chicky meal...dang it! but the nugget was good though...not to forget the milo! no ice
ok in the end of the journey she left some so called 'present' in my car
man it was so sticky but...the good thing is it makes my 'Stellar' smell good!
Farah Hebat 'The Witch' i wanna thank you for a great weekend and thanks for the chicky meal eventhough you take the free toy...haha ok gotta crash my hand into the keyboard for some assignment so ciao people!